Beach

The word that installs fear into women...lol. I have three month until we are spending spring break in Naples, Fl. I'm so excited to hangout at the beach. At my current size i'm really still fine... well lying down with a beach blanket covering me! So with that being said. I have been off my weight loss program since the summer. Its time to recommit, hit the gym, eat health and be fit. I'm really excited about going snorkeling with the family. The though of a huge white moon beaming up at everyone is enough to get me off my butt! This is going to be a great year.

I just discovered a new magazine. Its call Clean Eating. It has faboulous low cal recipes. I'm excited to try some of them. Plus great tips on eating healthier with less process foods, closer to nature. I'm not a huge lets eat organic, but it has great tips on eating with the season. What veggies and fruits are in their prime now and recipes to use them to the fullest. I'm also going to get their fitness magizine called Oxygen. Love the name. Hope the magazine is as good.

So cheers to a new healthier, fitter 2011!

Working out

Hey to my 3 readers...lol Being awhile. Our family has a new gym membership. Its really awesome because I get to workout with my hubby and daughter. It fun that Kelsie is now old enough to workout with us. I really can't wait until the boys will be. Talon is already lifting weights at home... its really cute. My eating has been doing pretty good. Considering its the holiday season not doing bad. This week has been better plus I'm kicking butt at the gym. I'm down to weighing once a week. My weight is going crazy and its really is discouraging to see the scale going up when you have been working so hard. I know that it is only my body adjusting to lifting weights and in a bit i'm hoping the weight will really start to come off. I figure I need to lose another 50 pounds and I will be prefect!! It higher then most i'm sure but it will be a weight that I think I will look good at and I can maintain. I will weigh in on Friday morning. I'm hoping for a good loss but it might be the same or even a gain. I'm not going to freakout. I'm just going to keep doing what i'm doing. I feel great. I think this going to be a great month!

Nope not going to say that....

Good week this week. I lost 4.4 pounds! Still not back down to what I was in June, but I'm closing the gap. Since the end of January last year I have lost a total of 42.2 pounds. I'm pretty proud of that. Recently I read over all my post. Its really nice to be sitting here knowing that I have put in the effort and it paid off. This New Years I know I'm NOT going to be say this is the year I'm going to lose weight. I can say this is the year I will get leaner, stronger, and healthier. That is powerful!!!

I love fall, the leaves are changing color, the air is cool, and the mosquito's are DEAD! LOL Its weird I would think that fall time would be hard to lose weight with all the temptation of Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas. But I'm getting better at changing up recipes like meatloaf so that I can enjoy them without feeling guilty. I made a great meatloaf with half ground turkey and half hamburger. It was really good. I think the hardest part is not falling back into old routines.

I want to start the New Years under two hundred pounds. I'm 23 pounds away from that right now, so its going to be hard. I'm going to take it one day at a time. Each day putting my best foot forward. So I guess that is my new goal. 199 by Jan 1, 2011. Wow just looking at the number is a little frightening. Its been a very very very longtime since I have seen it.

OK so I need to back track a bit. There are 10 weeks left in this year. So I need to lose 2.3 pounds per week. That is what I'm going to think about this week. 2.3 pounds, 2.3 pounds, 2.3 pounds... that I CAN do.

Fall

--noun
the season of the year that comes after summer and before winter; autumn

—Verb phrases
to lag, in pace or progress:

Perfect definition to describe my time and place. This summer saw a gradual slowing of my progress. My weight bounced as I have stated in numerous blogs. What I call stupid weight. But unfortunately at some point the stupid weight became real weight that one day of eating well couldn't fix. This morning I was up 5 pounds from my low of 219.8. Which is actually 4 pound down from where I was on Sunday morning.

I'm back to tracking. Which as I see over the months is truly the only way for me to lose weight. Ever little tasty morsel needs to be examined, tested, and written down for me to lose weight. Which is just how it is.

I would really like to finish off 2010, by leaving my 200 behind me. What a accomplishment that would be. I would be very very happy, really it would be one of the best Christmas presents yet. I wonder if I should just think of it as Christmas present to me. Here Annie with love from me. Your health, and a smaller butt! Really who could top that :) How does one wrap that...muhaha! Don't ask my hubby he would say just with a big red ribbon bow....

Feeling the need to blog again. I love the fall its my favorite time of year. Also it the time of year with lots of yummy comfort foods, birthdays, anniversary, Holidays. But one day can not a fat butt make. So it will be my resolve that on all the days holidays do not fall on to eat healthy. Days that are holidays, rejoice with my family, enjoy the food, and know that life is a balance. Each day brings it own goodness that should be savoried.

Yahooooooo

So excited, just broke the 220. Granted I weigh 219.8 but i'm under 220. Can't even remember when I have weighed under 220. Must have been in college. I think I might try my dresses on from Old navy. Haven't tried them on for a while...... giddy with excitment!

back in the saddle....again, again and yet again

Wow I thought it was easy to lose weight in the summertime. All those fresh fruits and veggies. Well apparently that doesn't apply to me:) The last two month my weight has been bouncing. I keep thinking I have it under control, then another holiday, birthday, baby shower, or nothing comes up and there I go. I must say I have stayed within 10 pounds or so. Right now I'm back down, but I still think I'm up a pound since my lowest weight.

I have been jogging. This has changed my body but not really my weight. It has also made me hungrier, so I have been dealing with that. I have really enjoyed running again (well other then my hips killing me) What can I say, I really like to sweat and the runners high isn't bad either. It been really awesome going running with the family. The boys both have bikes now, so they ride. Garry, Kelsie and I run. Its a family thing... I love that.

Ok gulp...Last week I was up to 227.8, now I'm back down to 222.2. So I lost 5 pounds this week sort of. Basically I lost the 5 pounds I gain so that really doesn't count. My lowest was 221.8 in the middle of June. Ok now I'm mad. I have gained .4 in the last month....ugh!!!!!

Well even with that being said I have lost 35.8 pounds and 5 inches off my waist. My legs and tushy have also slimmed down. Pants are fitting much better. That does make me feel better.

I'm thinking I need to go back to one day at a time. I'm not going to look ahead of what I might loss this week,month or year. I'm going to concentrate on eating well today, moving my body, and enjoying life. Tomorrow will be here soon enough.

Ah Ha Moment: Excercise

noun
1. bodily or mental exertion
2. a putting into action, use, operation, or effect


I finally feel like I need to put exercises in its proper place. Now I'm just taking about myself, I can't compare, note, or otherwise determine how exercise effects other. I have always thought of exercise as a means to control my weight. You might ask "how is that working for ya" This is the thinking... ok so I have a huge brownie with ice cream and whip cream on top. I deserve it, I worked out today. What does that even mean!!!!!! I deserve it!! I deserve to fill my body with CRAP! I work hard at the gym so that my body can starve itself on high calorie, high fat, nutritionally void food. Exercise is not the key, its more like the lock. With out eating right (the key) its useless in helping me lose weight.

Now before anyone think no I've lost all this weight walking, jog, weight lifting... whatever. I'm just talking about my little bubble. I was looking over the last couple of month. I have been losing weight for 4 1/2 month. Or really I should say I lost weight for the first 3 month and have been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds for the last month and a half. Sparkspeople is awesome. They have a calendar summary it show your calories, if you met all nutritional needs that day, did you exercise, and weight. So I was looking over the summary. The first 3 month I only missed one or two days of tracking my food. I didn't exercise at all and this is when I lost the most weight.

I notice that when I started working out again, my hunger level went way up and I stopped tracking my food because.....yup you guess it I was over eating. Now I do have some strategy that work to curb the hunger, but what about the mental part. I was still in that frame of mind of I deserve this brownie, cheeseburger, fried....you fill in the blank. What I really deserve is great tasting food, that is great for me! Why is it that I keep thinking that the food I have been eating veggies, fruit, lean meat, isn't normal and that greasy, nastiness is regular food. What kind of crazy twisted logic is that.

So does exercise have a place in my bubble. OH YEAH! I love to jog, not really in the moment...well sometimes. But I like how it makes me feel. I like looking at my thighs and having some muscle tone. I like being able to get off the floor with a spring, not having to have two people heft me up. I actually like to sweat and that feeling of accomplishment after I'm done.

So here is the point. I'm rethinking how I think of exercise. No longer is it my excuse to overeat, or indulge because I worked out. Exercise if soley to make my body feel better. So I vote for definition 2: a putting into action, use, operation, or effect.